Joyfulness (n.)

A condition of supreme well-being and good spirits.

The year everything changed

The year everything changed

I'm not sure why I'm here, honestly. But as I sit here with my coffee, in the stillness of the morning before the rest of the house wakes up, I find myself navigating the mouse and here I am. It's been a wild few years. Hard. Beautiful. Important. I feel like I got...

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Are you on autopilot?

Are you on autopilot?

If you're here from my Youtube video, you can grab your free guide below! If there's one thing I've learned in the last 15 years, it's that literally everything is temporary. Good or bad, nothing is here to stay forever. And while...

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Where do I even start? | Major life update

Where do I even start? | Major life update

What's that saying? Life happens while you're busy making plans. Yeah, that one. I feel like I should get that tattooed on my body. (Stop freaking out, Mom. I won't actually do it.) But woof. You guys. Hold on, let me gather my thoughts and figure out where exactly I...

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Easy Lunch | Cucumber Avocado Bowl

Easy Lunch | Cucumber Avocado Bowl

When I transitioned from a work-full-time-in-the-office-job to a full-time-wfh job, I pulled my toddler son from daycare and keep him with me full-time now, too. So, yeah. All of that together makes for one busy mama. For some reason, one area I tend to struggle is...

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Never again.

Never again.

It was almost exactly a year ago when I wrote this post about how it's not enough. I remember how I felt in that moment. I could hardly pull myself together. The thought of leaving him, my two month old son, actually hurt. I felt the pieces of my broken heart, the...

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TikTok got me thinking…

TikTok got me thinking…

I was scrolling TikTok, and for some reason my For You will sometimes serve up artist content. Painters. Sculptors. That sort of thing. I've always enjoyed art, but I don't have one artistic bone in my body. I loved drawing as a kid, but the talent...woof. Just not...

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When you’re staring down big change.

When you’re staring down big change.

I couldn't sleep. 3:30 and wide awake. I laid there for a while trying to will the sleep to come. It is not lost on me that for months I wished for the opportunity to sleep. And here it is and my body is literally rejecting it. But the truth is, I couldn't quiet my...

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I didn’t want kids.

I didn’t want kids.

I didn't know it would feel like this. We spent a lot of our marriage moving around, reinventing, re-establishing. It's exhausting, honestly. Fun, sure. Exciting, absolutely. But exhausting. I saw my friends buying houses, having babies, establishing families. We were...

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Jesus, make my baby cry

Jesus, make my baby cry

It happened so fast. And then in slow motion it seemed. Everything was fine. Perfectly normal. Textbook, and then it wasn't. My pregnancy was pretty uneventful. I'm lucky, I know. Besides getting Covid in my 9th month, I didn't have to experience a whole lot of fear....

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