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Where do I even start? | Major life update

Where do I even start? | Major life update

What's that saying? Life happens while you're busy making plans. Yeah, that one. I feel like I should get that tattooed on my body. (Stop freaking out, Mom. I won't actually do it.) But woof. You guys. Hold on, let me gather my thoughts and figure out where exactly I...

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Never again.

Never again.

It was almost exactly a year ago when I wrote this post about how it's not enough. I remember how I felt in that moment. I could hardly pull myself together. The thought of leaving him, my two month old son, actually hurt. I felt the pieces of my broken heart, the...

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TikTok got me thinking…

TikTok got me thinking…

I was scrolling TikTok, and for some reason my For You will sometimes serve up artist content. Painters. Sculptors. That sort of thing. I've always enjoyed art, but I don't have one artistic bone in my body. I loved drawing as a kid, but the talent...woof. Just not...

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When you’re staring down big change.

When you’re staring down big change.

I couldn't sleep. 3:30 and wide awake. I laid there for a while trying to will the sleep to come. It is not lost on me that for months I wished for the opportunity to sleep. And here it is and my body is literally rejecting it. But the truth is, I couldn't quiet my...

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I didn’t want kids.

I didn’t want kids.

I didn't know it would feel like this. We spent a lot of our marriage moving around, reinventing, re-establishing. It's exhausting, honestly. Fun, sure. Exciting, absolutely. But exhausting. I saw my friends buying houses, having babies, establishing families. We were...

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