I’m good at making messes. Not actual, literal messes, though I am good with those too. I mean the life messes. I don’t know how they happen. I don’t think I’m an irresponsible person. But for some reason, I often find myself in the throws of a mess.
I can’t be sure if it’s me, exactly, or if life just picks us for the messes because we can handle them. I know people often say that we are only given the load we can bear. But I can’t help but wonder why our load seems heavier than most.
And for a long time, I let myself wallow in that fact. When something happens enough times, you start to let it define you. You stop trying to be anything else because why bother, right? It’s exhausting and deflating.
I think I’ve just come to the point where I’ve accepted our mess for what it is. And all we can really do is work our asses off and be nice to people. Nothing good ever comes for free. And it definitely doesn’t ever come easy.
I’ve always been a fighter. I don’t let life happen to me. I push back. I try to redefine things. Fix things. But the one real truth is, I’ve never had to do it alone.
I may not have some glittery career. I may not own a house or take fancy vacations every year. But when everything gets stripped away, what really matters in the end is who is standing next to you.
As a person who has suffered through a long-term lopsided friendship, it’s startling to me when friends step in and save the day, the week, the month, the year. Because I’m not used to it. I’m not used to people being the same kind of friend to me as I would be to them. I accepted it as fact, the constant imbalance.
Yesterday was a mess. And in the end, it was a friend who jumped in without even being asked and cleaned up what I couldn’t.
I know one thing for sure. I’ll take the mess any day as long as I’m standing in it with these people.
🙁 Hugs! It sounds like things are rough right now so I'm sending lots of virtual wine, hugs and prayers your way. And rejoicing for the people in your corner 🙂
I'm sorry you had a rough go of things yesterday. :/ BUT I'm glad to hear that you have good people in your corner who want to help you through those times when they come! 🙂
Eeek I hate to hear you had a rough day but you persevered and girlfriend that is what matters! Yay for great friendship to help you out. That means THE WORLD! xoxox Amanda
I am sorry that you had a rough day yesterday, but it sounds like you have some amazing people in your life now 🙂
So sorry you had a rough day yesterday, sending lots of good vibes your way!
So sorry to hear yesterday was tough — it happens. We're pretty much all in some sort of mess (big or small) all of the time. I sort of think that life's a mess in general. People just aren't always as willing to acknowledge it as you are. Love your honesty — no wonder you're surrounded by amazing people! 🙂
xoxo
Kat
I'm finding that friends that will actually step in and help when you need it, especially without you needing to ask, are a rare find these days! So glad you have those kind of people in your life!
sorry you got stuck in a mess, but yay for friends stepping in and saving the day 🙂