Ugliness.

First of all, this has nothing to do with me.  I have been lucky enough to avoid the nastiness on the internet.  I think a lot of that is due in part to the fact that those of you who take the time to read this blog, read my tweets or watch my videos know me on some level.  Even if it’s just a little communication back an forth–I’m still a person to you guys.  And for that, I am forever grateful.  I’ll keep my blog small and my videos unseen forever if I can just stay in this little bubble.  

But I am pretty active in the youtube community despite my lack of videos right now.  I am so interested in that craft, and I completely respect any person who can sit in front of a camera and put themselves out there.  That’s half the reason I started doing it was because it’s something that scared me so much, and well, if you’ve hung around here enough lately, you know this year is basically about facing fears for me.

I have my favorites; the youtubers I love to watch.  There are some that aren’t my cup of tea.  I’ll watch a video or two, realize I’m not into it, and move along.  I only watch what I like.  I don’t have time to waste watching a video (or reading a blog, no less) that I’m not interested in.  I have even less time to drag those people down just because I’m not the right audience for them.

I see so much hate and ugliness on the internet.  It makes my stomach turn.  Like I said, I’ve been lucky enough to avoid that.  Mr. Anonymous doesn’t hang out here, thank God.  But some of the comments I read, both on blog posts and videos make me so sad.  I think two things.  1) Someone out there has an ugly enough heart to think those things and write those things.  2) The person who created the video or wrote the blog post is a real person who will read that comment.  You can’t tell me that if someone wrote this to you, you wouldn’t be hurt:

I’d block out the name of the commenter, but I feel like when you have the ugliness in your heart to write stuff like this, I don’t have to be considerate.

Basically, the point of this is just to think.  I know writing this post is essentially useless because those of you who follow my blog are some of the most amazing, kind hearted and supportive people alive so this is preaching to the wrong audience.  But it was on my heart.  And it makes me sad.